Only God

Trust in him at all times; ye people, pour out your heart before him: God is a refuge for us. Psalm 62:8 KJV

Charles Spurgeon once wrote, “Happy is the man who feels that all he has, all he wants, and all he expects are to be found in his God.” David must have lived by this same truth when he penned such phrases as My soul, wait thou only upon God; for my expectation is from him. He only is my rock and my salvation. Any believer who finally comes to realize the same thing as these two men steps into a whole new realm of faith. I want that kind of walk!

I look at Psalm 62:8 and I want God to be the one I trust in at all times, confide in with abandon, and rest in with complete confidence. I don’t want to go after the counterfeits. I don’t want to seek out someone else’s ear or heart. I don’t want to look for a person to make me feel safe, secure, or protected. I want all of that to come from my relationship with Him. The truth of the matter is that I am not there yet. I have known it for decades but was only able to admit it in recent years. Does that admittance discourage me? No! It frees me!

I am coming to realize that growth in the Christian life is a step by step, gradual process. Many times I have had to look back over months or even years to see that any progress has been made. In the area of looking to God alone I see two encouraging advancements. First, I now long to experience God in the way I have described. Years ago it never entered my mind…wasn’t even something that appealed to me. Second, I don’t sense condemnation or disappointment from my Father. He knows where He intends to lead me in all of this and cheers me on as I move toward His goal for me. Within that context of acceptance and embrace I now feel free to admit the things He already knows about me.

This morning I am asking myself some necessary questions. What are my trust issues with God? What is it that I need to voice to Him? What are my insecurities that need to find refuge in Him? I will find the answers and healing as I acknowledge anything He reveals to me. No more hiding, excusing, blaming, or running. Trust, communication, and safety are but a few of the many gifts He holds out to me on a daily basis. Praise Him!

Father, I hear Your invitation to intimacy. Show me anything that still hinders me from seeing You as the ONLY one! Amen.