Settling Things

But if the man have no kinsman to recompense the trespass unto, let the trespass be recompensed unto the Lord..." Numbers 5:8a

Ever have a nagging feeling over a sin in your past that you have never been able to make right with the person? Maybe they've died or you've lost complete contact with them? I have often wondered what to do with those things. Although they have been confessed and forgiven I have often wished I could still make it right with them.

This morning in Sunday School a verse became crystal clear to me and I was greatly encouraged. According to Numbers 5:8 I can make restitution to God in the cases where the person is no longer reachable.

Think back to a time when you were younger and you decided to take some candy from a store without paying for it. I have found that the sins that nag at me are the ones I never got caught doing (at least caught by people). The store no longer exists and the owners are long gone. How can I then repay them for my theft? According to Numbers 5:8 I can give the money to God. It is the closure I need and the encouragement I appreciated today.

Learning to Let

Let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus. Phil. 2:5

I never gave that little word "let" much thought....until tonight. I always summed this verse up to mean "think like Christ" or "have the same attitude as Christ." Sometimes I was left with the "just do it" mentality. Once again I felt like I had to just dig in with all my strength, grit my teeth, and somehow master having the attitude of Christ. I had to think like Him, respond like Him, act like Him when all the while I knew I wasn't Him! Result? Failure and a good reminder that "without Him I can do nothing."

So I looked up the word "let" in the dictionary....my favorite Bible companion. One definition jumped out at me! Let: to permit to enter. That simple definition shed new light on an all too familiar verse. What God wants me to do is allow Christ's mind to enter me...give His mind free access into my internal world.

My mind is already swimming with the thoughts of what hinders His mind from entering me? Certainly the world, the flesh, and the devil all readily bolt the doors as best they can. Christ will not barge His way in. He waits....hoping I will decide to give His mind entry.

May I start each day with an open invitation for Christ's mind to enter and dwell in me. And since I determine how long His mind will stay in me, may I desire a permanent residence!

Father, it is becoming evident to me that so much of this journey takes place in my mind. My thoughts become the catalyst for my actions, words, tone of voice, motives, etc... How much better to LET Your mind be that catalyst! Amen.

Believing the Lies

Search me, O God, and know my heart. Try me and know my thoughts. And see if there be any wicked way in me. Psalm 139:23, 24 (King James Version)

This morning I am looking at this verse in a different way. I use to think of God as a condemning, harsh judge who enjoyed nothing more than to pick my life apart, lay the ugly truth before me, and sharply tell me to start measuring up! With a view like THAT why would I ever feel like inviting Him to search me and know me? Activity was my way of trying to distract God from seeing the flaws or at least from me seeing them. I had somehow bought into the lie that God only sees my sin. The thought of God delighting in me, cherishing me, or loving me unconditionally was foreign to me.

But this morning as this verse came to mind I realized that God's searching is not to find out hidden things for Himself. He already knows every part of my life....inside and out. His searching is to reveal aspects of my life to myself. Sometimes that involves revealing sin to me. But many times it is also to reveal where I have been hurt, where I am still broken and bleeding, where I need to replace all the lies about God and myself with the truth.

Although at times this process can be difficult and painful it is always done with loving, gentle hands. God is continually reshaping my thinking. Just this week I have been realizing I still harbor many wrong opinions about God. When I find it difficult to tell God what I really think, feel, or fear He tells me in prayer that the difficulty comes because I still believe lies about Him. I still have someone else's face on Him. If I cower and hide I am still under the assumption that He is a God to be avoided instead of embraced. That His love is based on my performance of duties rather than a heart of love. That He prefers distance to drawing near.

He is daily helping me to see the twisted lies I have lived under. My view of Him is like a valuable painting that has been painted over. What God is doing is slowly taking away the chips of paint so that the Masterpiece of Himself can be clearly seen. And as I see the portrait restored to its original form I am able to trust His searching of me and knowing of my heart.

Father, I finally yield to Your searching and knowing. You are trustworthy, gentle, and good! Let me see what You have seen all along. Amen.

Having A Right View of God

What are you doing here, Elijah? I Kings 19:9

Many times God uses questions to probe our heart. They are meant to get us to search for the reasons behind our actions, words, and attitudes. God seeks to draw the truth out of us. Elijah had an answer ready for God but the conclusion he drew was incorrect. He thought he was the only follower left. Many times circumstances can distort our perception of God and ourselves. If one person rejects us then we interpret that to mean all people are rejecting us. If something goes wrong we feel everything is going wrong. Then the very thoughts we hold toward others become the thoughts we hold against God.

God always desires to reveal Himself to us. He wants to do nothing more than take our false, pre-conceived ideas and replace them with the truth. Usually the distortions are: God does not love me, God is angry with me, God is too busy for me, God is preoccupied. So far from the truth!

The Bible reveals much about the heart and character of God. When I have a wrong view of God, it is imperative that I counter it out loud with Scripture. For instance, if I tell myself God does not love me, I must counter it with God loves me with an everlasting love. He does not care must hear casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you. And so on.

God does not mean for us to walk through life with lies about Himself. He loves it when we ask Him to reveal Himself to us.

Father, You present such a clear picture of Yourself. May I no longer live with the distorted ones. Amen.

He Provides What I Need

Arise and eat, because the journey is too great for you. I Kings 19:7b

After a great victory at Mt. Carmel, Elijah is running for his life and praying God would take his life. Jezebel is convinced she holds sway over his life and she has convinced Elijah of that very thing.
This morning I am sad. My emotions are on the surface. The fingers of authority threaten to strangle me and the prospects for the next three years look dim. I have struggled to journal or even feast on God’s Word.

Elijah was given bread and water to eat. He was sustained for forty days on what he ate. He went in the strength of that food. What is it that God will feed me with at this time of my life? His Word. His Spirit. His presence. Although I have given up all personal plans I know He is still the rock I stand on, the tower I dwell in, the refuge I find shelter in, the security I rest in. His hand is on me and I grasp it. His ears are open to my cry. His heart is moved by my plight.
As I seek direction He gives it. He has NOT forsaken me nor has He stepped aside and left me to fend for myself. My sadness does not offend Him ~ He understands this kind of sorrow.
I don’t know what lies ahead but I know who to hold on to in the midst of the storm. I must look to Him to provide for my social, emotional., and spiritual well being. May I rest in Him until definite direction is given.

Father, You control my life. May those who seek to hinder me not succeed. Amen.

In the Place of God

And Joseph said unto them , “Fear not; for am I in the place of God?” Genesis 50:19

When we begin to think that our life is in someone else’s hands (besides God’s) we can be filled with apprehension, dread, worry, and fear. Many Bible characters could have despaired of the influence others wielded over their life. The actions of others does affect us. But ultimately God holds us in His hands. He brings good from any situation. He produces gold from seeing tragedy. Beauty from ashes. Joseph and Job come to mind when I think of innocent victims. But both their lives ended up abundantly blessed.

But it is not just in fearful situations that the questions is asked, “Am I in the right place, God?” When I look to others to meet my needs I am looking for them to be in God’s place.

Disappointment marks my day when they fall short of my expectations. May I not put any other person in God’s place.

Father, forgive me for the times I replace You with Your creation. May daily look to You. Amen.

Getting What We Least Expect

Joseph will peradventure hate us, and will certainly requite (repay) us all the evil which we did unto him….Now therefore fear ye not: I will nourish you, and your little ones. And he comforted them, and spake kindly unto them. Genesis 50:15 & 21

Joseph’s brothers feared they would get what they deserved. They suspected the only reason Joseph had been kind to them so far was because of their father’s presence. Now with Jacob dead their safety net has been removed and they tried to use his name and supposed dieing words to replace the safety net. There is no greater safety net than grace. It does not hinge on the behavior or deserving of the recipients. It rests in the heart of the giver.

Joseph wept when his brothers spoke to him. His tears were for his brothers who still walked in fear of him. They had not embraced the love he lavished on them. They really did not know his heart for them. If I spend my time living under wrong concepts of God, I miss the joy of relationship with Him. Better to list His extravagant gifts than live under self condemnation and guilt.

Joseph comforted them and spoke kindly unto them. What a picture of my Abba Father. May I learn to soak up His tenderness. Undeserved? Yes! But lavishly given just the same.

Father, may I feel safe, secure, and loved by You today. Let me grasp Your character! Amen!