Here By His Choice

Thus says the LORD, your Redeemer, and the One who formed you from the womb, I the LORD, am the maker of all things... Isaiah 44:24

God's involvement in my life did not begin when I accepted Christ as my Savior. My salvation simply put me into family relationship with Him. The moment I trusted Christ to be my Savior in July of 1973 was the moment I became His child ~ His daughter. But His history with me was evident long before that.

I love the fact that God formed me in my mother's womb. He was active and present in the first seconds of my conception. He had His hands on me and was fashioning me for a purpose in the same way that He formed the earth from nothing and Adam from dust. He put into place all the intricate details for my body as well as my soul, spirit, and personality. As a potter molds clay, He molded me. I was His personal creation in every way.

And while He was forming me, He was talking to me as well. Isaiah 49:1 says He called me and named me. In the KJV it says He made mention of my name. What a personal, intimate Creator! I often wonder if at that time He was speaking His plans over my life. Whispering to me His intentions for me. That maybe today as I desire certain things, they are mere echoes of His words spoken long ago. I'd like to think so!

There have been truths I failed to grasp for years. A number of years ago, my mother shared with me the reaction she had when she found out she was pregnant with me. In essence, she shared some details of my womb experience. I was the fourth child to be born. At the time, my parents’ marriage was strained and finances were tight. So my mom's initial reaction to my conception was anger and tears. Hence, the message was delivered to me as I lived in her womb that I was a burden. It manifested itself into my adult years as an ever present idea that I was a burden to any people in my life ~ even close friends.

God is in the process of rewriting that message and He is starting with the truth of His choice for me to be born. When negative thoughts arise I now have something to counter them with. He loved me, chose me, formed me, called me by name, and purposed my existence. I am alive and here on purpose!

Father, You not only hold my hand today, your were holding it as You formed me. I am touched by Your touch. Amen